My current project, as a recording musician, is almost finished: I'm down to the final mixing of the eight original songs I recorded last month with Neal Alger. I recorded the instrumental tracks on September 6th, recorded the vocals on September 10th, re-recorded parts of some vocal tracks ("punch-ins") on September 24th, mixed the songs on October 3rd and this week will be receiving a CD in the mail that I can listen to and decide if there's anything else I want to change. I think at this point I don't want to change a thing! I'm new to this process and I've had enough of it for a while.
I also need to rally my spirits. This is just the beginning of months/years of recording and submitting songs before I achieve any success selling them for film/tv placement (or as songs to be recorded by another artist). I already feel discouraged and that's no good. I'm realizing that if I keep recording my songs with just guitar and bass accompaniment, they're going to sound like folk songs and few people want folk songs. I need a poppier sound, or at least a more country/western sound because country music is much more marketable than folk. I never thought I'd long to sound like a country singer, but right now I do. Sounding folk just feels like the kiss of death since record companies aren't looking for folk songs (folk singers tend to write their own songs). I need to change my sound when I can't really afford to hire more musicians to record my songs. So how do I change my sound? If it's just me and a guitar, am I doomed?
Also, the man I love and live with has been sent to work in Florida for the next month or so. I'm facing the Halloween month alone, when we had made all these great Halloween plans. We're cold weather people and had been looking forward so much to the fall. We were so excited when September finally arrived. Now he's stuck in a stupid, sunny place, where he doesn't want to be and I don't want to visit. He left at 3:45 a.m. this morning and I'm realizing this apartment is too big for just me. My boyfriend's company SUCKS!