Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Middle-aged struggle

Because of personal stressors, I put on almost ten pounds between May 8th and June 19th. This is significant when you're only five feet, two inches tall.

I haven't weighed this much in almost ten years. It's very discouraging because I know it'll take way more than six weeks to take it all off. My only consolation is that, while spring is always a difficult time for me, it was something very specific that triggered my depression and made me hit the carbs like I did. With plenty of therapy and self-care I already feel better. I'm sure it'll be a matter of months until I'm back where I was. (A matter of years? Damn.)

7 comments:

Cat said...

Is this one of those times when it's correct to say "That totally sucks. I'm sorry." rather than offering a fix? Because if it is, that totally sucks. I'm sorry.

Mick said...

thats a short space of time to put the weight on but you know what you need to do so you'll succeed in getting it back off i'm sure

Regina said...

Thank you, Cat. Thank you, Mick. My mood has been going up and down, but so far weight has just gone one way. It has to turn around. I weigh almost 20 pounds more than I did in the spring of 2010 (and I'm only 5'2"!).

Obesio said...

I put on about 20 lbs in 2010. Perhaps not coincidentally, I didn't weigh myself a single time from December 2009 through February 2011. In March, I grimly re-dedicated myself to eating a little bit healthier and exercising a little bit more. Now I keep a spreadsheet with my weight and so-called "exercise" routine. I am not at the point where I can psychologically deal with a food diary, but that is the natural next step. For a variety of reasons, forcing myself to accurately record my weight and workouts has had a beneficial effect.

Sandii said...

just a place to start Regina! your emotional well being will trigger everything else into action, take care xx

cindylu said...

I know how you feel. It definitely sucks.

I'm only an inch taller than you. In the last 2 months or so, I've gained about 5 lbs. I'm still down ~50 from my high weight, but this slow creep up making me anxious. Everything you hear about weight loss is that eventually, folks gain it back. I don't think I'll gain it all back, as long as I keep running. But enough will come back to make me feel uncomfortable and make me outgrow some of my more fitted clothes.

I know what I need to do, but it's much more difficult when I'm practically living with my fiance. I workout just as much, if not more, than I did when I was actively trying to lose weight. I just need to get my eating in check.

Suerte.

Regina said...

Obesio - you have my great empathy.
Sandii - yes, controlling stress is the key.
Cindylu - It can be hard to eat well when you have someone else's habits affecting yours. Yes, the conventional wisdom is that all weight loss comes back, but I think if you stay vigilant and make friends with your weight scale, you can stop yourself when you start to slide. Well, if you're not in the depths of depression. My problem is that when I'm depressed, I don't care what the scale says, I need COOKIES. All I can do is start climbing back afterwards, which I am.