I don't want to sound like I've joyously found a wonder pill, but my chiropractor put me on S-Adenosyl methionine (SAMe) a few weeks ago and it's greatly changed my mood. Have you heard of SAMe (pronounced "sammy")? From the Web MD website:
SAMe is a chemical that is found naturally in the body. It can also be made in the laboratory. The body uses SAMe to make certain chemicals in the body that play a role in pain, depression, liver disease, and other conditions. People who don’t make enough SAMe naturally may be helped by taking SAMe as a supplement. Used for depression, anxiety, heart disease, fibromyalgia, osteoar
thritis,bursitis, tendonitis, chronic lower back pain, dementia, Alzheimer's di sease, slowing the aging process, chronic fatigue syndrome, improving intellectual performance, liver disease, and Parkinson's disease. It is also used for attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), multiple sclerosis, spinal cord injury, seizures,migraine heada che, and lead poisoning.
SAMe has greatly improved how I feel about myself and my life. The negative thinking and self-loathing I struggle with have almost disappeared. My reliance on emotional crutches is greatly reduced: I feel almost no desire for gooey sweets or chain-watching horror movies. I’m not as hungry. My desire to sleep my weekends away is going down. I look in the mirror and see beauty and peace. I think this is how people feel who don't live with depression. How lucky they are, and now I am, too!
Reinforcing my new mood is a book called Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One. I love that title because I am so sick of being my usual moody, depressive, self-loathing self. Dr. Joe Dispenza guides you through understanding how the brain and body function together and how the mind determines much more of our reality than we realize. It's completely compatible with the healing work I’ve been doing with Emotional Freedom Technique.
Dispenza's practice requires aligning your mental and emotional energies. It stresses that you won't get far if all you do is think about or say affirmations about what you want: you must also harness the power of gratitude and joy, fueling your intention with coherent heart rhythm patterns.
For two weeks I've been tapping on: releasing the parts of me that weren't really me was easier than I expected. Dispenza suggests that we act, think and feel as if our goal is already reached, and it's been so much easier for me to do with SAMe. A co-worker recommended this book to me and I recommend it to the world. I will let go of my destructive patterns and moodiness. I will let go of the excessive napping, snacking and horror movie watching, and I'm already feeling grateful for having accomplished all of it!
Although this book is full of eye-opening information and step-by-step instructions on how to release your old habits and create a new life, it also requires complete commitment to a lifestyle centered on meditation and being willing to look at one's deepest, most painful parts. It's a transformational process, but it demands a great deal of time and focus. Those of us who have already spent our lifetimes battling our inner demons and trying to understand our emotional mechanisms have a head start on this work. I'm looking forward to going even deeper with Dispenza's approach.
It finally feels like life is getting easier. I'm 47 years old and for 25 damn years I’ve been hacking away at my self-hatred like a climber forcing her way up a sheer ice cliff. I have finally reached the top and now the metaphor changes: with momentum on my side, instead of fighting gravity, I just have to release the brakes and coast down to where I really belong: my real home where I peacefully love and accept myself . After all the work I've done, going the rest of the way doesn't have to be difficult or painful. In fact, it was easier than I expected.